Washers, boogers, and teens, Oh My!

I subbed for our church secretary today. That is always fun. I love working at the church. My bosses are not insane, and believe me, that is a problem, I've had insane bosses before.
Tomorrow and Friday I babysit, which I love doing.
And then Monday I'm back at the church.

Tonight I am going to attempt to gain my husband some help in the technical aspect of his job at church. I'm going to speak to the teens and try to coax them into WANTING to work the cameras and computer. Yes, I think they will want to do it! I'm going to first gain their attention. Because they ARE teens, they will not want to pay attention to what a 36yo woman has to say, right? I am going to play a little game with them. I'll blog about it if it goes well.

Yesterday I took my abundance of laundry to the laundromat. I took pics, I'll have to upload them when I have a chance. (yeah, right!) But seriously, I counted washing machines, and I used 18. They are much smaller than I would do for a load in my washer, though. It is weird, I thought they would have larger washers. I did decide I do not want a front loader. I'm too stupid to have one. I would load up the soap and start it without putting the clothes in and then I wouldn't be able to get the clothes in until it was done. Really. I often start loads and then find things to add to it, I couldn't do that if I had a front loader.
I also found out that I am the worst person for stained clothes. Why?? Because everyone wipes their noses, faces, hands, feet, boogers, food, drinks, all over me when they touch me, hug me, steal my food and chug my soda. Then add my own natural grace at eating, and it is a recipe for disaster. I'm going to go all black. Black sweat clothes.

And we're back in business!

My husband, who HATES computers, finally, finally, finally fixed my computer! I'm not in safe mode anymore! I have sound now! My computer runs faster without all the old games and junk we didn't use anymore!
Happy, happy, joy, joy!
I don't know why Donnie hates computers, he's really pretty good with them, he manages to provide for all of us. He doesn't make a ginormous salary, but we live in a nice, big, old house. And we have finally paid off all of our vehicles this month! We are making it, even when things get tight, he's a great provider. I can't imagine going to work every day, but to go to work every day to a job you just hate because it provides all your family needs. We could live in a smaller house where the kids have to share bedrooms, get down to at least two vehicles, never eat out or go play and he could have a job that he at least likes a bit. But he makes sure we are given more than we need and I'm so thankful.
Ok, not the point of my post!
Another awesome amazing thing happened! My dryer just up and decided to work! It hasn't been working for a couple of months. It would "work" but shut off after 3-4 minutes with LOUD screeching noises. I wanted a shirt dried on Sunday morning, and it was a tiny, thin shirt for Trinity, so I thought "maybe" it would stay on long enough to dry it if I ran it a couple of times.... well it just kept going and going and going! Now its working! (Ok, its "working" but its not working, it runs without stopping, but its not actually drying, lol, babysteps!)
And then.........
I've been looking for a job, sort of, for a little while now. I've applied but not gotten even a call back. I'm not even reaching high here, we're talking Dairy Queen, lol. I've gotten applications for the nursing homes right on the next block over, but I didn't really have the heart to fill them out. I just don't want to leave my kids at home, plus I'd need to pay the kids for watching the little ones, or have daycare during the day and be home with them in the evenings. It just didn't feel good to me. So I've been praying for God to provide the right job for me. And out of the blue I ended up talking to a friend and offered to baby sit for her, which works out well for both of us because she needs someone to come to her house in the morning so she can leave at 6:15am without waking her little kids up, and I don't have to wake mine up to go there because my husband is home until 9am, and Cody is going to school at home, so I'll have sitters until I get her boys dressed and fed and over to my house! It works out so well, and its only two days a week, two VERY long days, but it won't interfere with my husband's day off! It's enough extra for me to feel good about it, and no daycare costs for me, so its just perfect!
God is so good! My friend is just so excited because I was an answer to prayer for her, as well, she said she's even been dreaming about me babysitting!
So, sometime around the end of August I'll be working, but still at home!

Sunday Festivus #6

Sunday Festivus is something started by Pam at Terrific Teens to gripe about yourself or something other than other people.

I am so sad that I cannot potty train Trinity. What am I doing wrong? She is over 3 years old!

A couple of days ago I thought we hit a breakthrough. She came and sat on my lap and I said "I love you!" And she said "I love you, too, Mommy!"

Me: "I'm glad you are my baby!"

Trin: "I not a baby, I a big girl!"

Me: "Then why did you pee on my computer chair, and on my bed?"

Trin: "I sorry, mommy! I not do that again! I pee in the potty chair."

Me: "Oh, good."

And she has been! All day yesterday she used the toilette. All day. Then I put her to bed and she took her diaper off and peed all over her bed in her sleep, even on her pillow. Most of today she used the toilette. She had one accident today. Great! So I put her off to bed tonight after a pretty good day. Then I went to put Sam to bed. I snuck over to tuck her back in the blankets. What did I find?? She'd taken her diaper off. After she po*ped. And played in it.

I'm really nauseated tonight. I read someone's blog off of my favorite place, diaper swappers, and she had a link to a really gross video. The top ten zits, cysts, etc. on you tube. It was really gross and fascinating! I ended up watching it three times, and I don't normally have a weak stomach, but even my teen boys were feeling like puking. But we couldn't turn away, lol. So, its self-inflicted. Still not fun, though.

I'm really not happy with myself about something else, too. I quit working 1 1/2 years ago. I was working for a construction company, and aside from the fact that my bosses were nuts, (my direct supervisor was great, the owners were nuts) they were doing some "creative bookkeeping" and wanted me to do things that I just could not do, like put things done for this insurance adjuster's house on someone else's tab, getting the insurance to pay for it.

After that, I did a little bit of subbing for our church secretary. I absolutely loved it! I basically told God that if I ever have to work I would like to work there, but I didn't want to replace the secretary, just get her job if she gets a better one and moves on. Its been a long time now, and she recently put in her resignation.

Wow, most of our vehicles do not work, we eventually need a new roof, (very soon), and we could use a little more money to get out of debt. Then this dream job opens up! Well, of course I have to apply! But I have a 4 month old, so I really don't want to work right now. I am completely torn.

Well, I thought I was pretty good friends with our secretary. We have always gotten along really well, I even watched her teenage son for a weekend. (she does not go to our church, so we only know each other because of her working there) So, thinking she was moving on to another job, I told her how funny it was that I had prayed about wanting her job if I ever had to work. She shut right down. I have apologized to her, but I think she is still really hurt. Now I know that she didn't leave with something lined up. She did tell me that she doesn't know why God had her leave, but that she does believe it will be better for her and better for our church. So I don't understand why she is so upset with me. I didn't WANT her to quit, and I do NOT want to work right now.

And I feel bad that she is telling people that noone that applied is qualified, when I am actually qualified. She specifically told a friend of mine that noone was qualified to do the quickbooks or payroll. I did quickbooks AND payroll on quickbooks (which she doesn't do yet) for 6 months at my job! One of the software that the sec needs to know was bought by my husband and is run by him, and I have run it. There is one thing I do not know, but everyone says that is not important because its easy and not a big deal.

I really thought she would enjoy training me as much as I would enjoy learning from her. Could I have really blown it that bad by telling her that?

Now I have to decide if I really even want to work. Can I work? The babysitting seems to be working out pretty well up until September. And I can keep nursing Sam because my son can drive him up during the day to nurse. The kids can even hang out at church occasionally. Its not every day work, either, so Sam and Trin would only have sitters 3 days a week.

I just need to keep praying. I don't want to work if I don't have to, but if it is where God wants me, then I would LOVE to work at our church.